I was a little upset when i wrote this,  you should know that.

We, in a few very real ideas, grew up very little alike.  I feel a little afraid to say that, because honestly we did, its just that our high school experiences were totaly different, and im just afraid that when im older and i think of my childhood, or my hometown, or old old friends, im going to think of high school first.  If thats the case then im going to be sad when i reminisce.  I never felt that, i never felt like a family at school.  I was another gray box on an assembly line, a dark dilapidated building.  The education system is something even Henry Ford would be embarrassed by.  The part of school i remember most is the space between every number on every clock hanging in every classroom.  I feel that deep down i understood how wrong it was to be there waiting to be released, when it would have been a bit more helpful to learn something, but i did.  That could be one of the greatest mysteries, how i passed highschool.  I cant say like i never felt like didnt belong there, because the place was honestly built for my form, just not my mind set and ideas.  To pass Public Highschool, all you have to do is the work, then you can spend the rest of time relaxing in class watching the spaces between those numbers grow so slowly, and let things like robbing banks, dropping things from bridges, and learning how to do a cartwheel roll through your head.  The experiences from the time i will remember are honestly not those i spent inside the building, or with classmates, but when i got my car, and all the things done with friends outside of school.  That makes sense, but i wish i had known of early college, i really feel like i would have gone if i had known.  
I really just cant get out of how poorly constructed highschool is.  I spent time in classes thinking of how to get out, and there were ways.  Andy and i used to, every now and then, go to the gas station and get candy bars and cokes, and eat those while school was going on, then pick up lottery tickets and head to school 45 mins late and there was nothing the teachers could do.  as long as we were there for the last 45 mins of class, youre counted as not absent.  and then the scheduling id ridiculous, how everything is regimented and aligned.  And there were always loopholes, you just had to find them.  I took office assistant and the honest to god only thing i learned while i was there was how to fix a jammed shredder with a paper clip and also i learned that i never ever ever ever ever ever ever want to work in an office, with a cubicle and a computer.  I cant be tied up like that and forced all that crap.  I do think it was neat how i was the only one who could fix the shredder haha, no one else thought to use a paper clip ;).  1st period, 2nd period, 3rd period/lunch, fourth period.  for 4 years.  I sometimes felt like choosing the class you wanted to take was like playing with scratch and sniff stickers.  There was nothing they offered other than the cores that appealed to me.  Art was there thank god.  I swear if there werent arts in schools the kids would revolt.  I loved playing the sax.  I always felt like it was never a part of me until my last year.  Ive thought about that, now, after the fact.  Sax and art where my reasons for going to school.  And English teachers, thy always seemed to understand how disgusting public education was, but just went with it and did their job, but all the while influencing us to think for ourselves more than anyone else.
Ughh this was just a big vent, kind of.  

Things are so much different right now, and im loving it :D  I working my first job ever at Lowes food in the produce.  Its really an awesome job, so far at least.  I hope it doesnt change, except i hope i dont have to work as much as i have been, almost non-stop it feels.  I applied and got the job right away, it was amazing.  I cut a lot of lettuce and celerey and corn today, (if you got any of these at LOWES food today, theres a real good chance i prepared it!!!).  I had to change the Pineapple sample tray 2wice, people like pineapple, and the strawberrys are selling like craaazy, its totally strawberry season, the numbers dont lie!  Ive learned so much about the food industry and about food in general, produce , vegetables and fruits and all at least.  Im really glad im getting to do this job.  I got to 17.5 hours so far!!! thats some moneey : )

I really hope this job leaves time for me and kaitlin.  I really couldnt take being away from her for so long with school and classes, and then finally coming home and then not being able to spend time with her here either, especially when she lives so close, and when were both working it wll be like torture because well be in the same building but not even really allowed to see each other, except for lunches and breaks.  I just really want to lay beside my love and rest and be happy and have no worries.  I still think about how long summers are though,  you can say oh only like 2 and a half months  but when youre living them  they take a long time, last summer felt like a year and a half.  I just really hope that happens this year.   I want so much time to just be with kaitlin.

Were going to new york in 15 days and ive been saving money!!!! nad ill have at least one paycheck by then i think.  so thatl be ridiculous and i couldnt type how excited i am :D:D:D
I just want to be with my love right now.  I love you so much and i really miss you

The past few months, so much has changed in my life.  I just feel like i need to write it out or try to express it.  My life feels like in so many ways, like its finally taking the road that i always thought was there, the road that i wanted.  Things are changing so fast, it really is just a bnch of big steps.  I got my first job ever today.  Ive tried so hard to get jobs before, i even got that interview at video review,( you might already know the story).  But this one actually went through!  i applied at Lowes food and 2 hours later got a call from the manager for an interview and then today went in for my first training and paper signings and trainging video watching.  It was pretty lame but then i met the manager of the produce department and hew was really chill and relaxed and just seemed like a really nice person to have working above you.  Timing was perfect for this one and i thank Kaitlin of course : ) 
    But the job is only a little bit of my life,  I've fallen in love.  She is the best thing that has ever happened to me, and i really mean that.  It felt like i hadn't been able to listen to myself or something, like i wasnt living my life exactly how i wanted to, like i changed myself for others, but now i feel so free, so able to do what i want and it feels so right.  I've never been more comfortable with my life, and i've never felt so natural, or so home.
    College is ending for the first year and im going home for the summer.  Kaitlin and I have big plans for the weeks we got off, to NY and CT and all the places on the way, and then the beach.  This summer is just coming faster than i thought it would, and i really want the summer, so bad.  I want to be free from school work, and be making money and handling produce and spending time with my love.  I want to feel home again.  But college is really amazing, and i really do hope the next 3 years dont go as fast as this one did.  College is just amazing, i really liked this first year.  Im really not looking forward to having to pack all my things up, its going to take a while, but i dont have that much.
    Things are changing, the world is moving beneath us and were taking our steps towards tomorrow.  together.

This weekend was one of the coolest ever made, custom designed and form fitted around my love and me. 
When i got to elon, kaitlin asked if we could slackline, and I said "YES".  It really pleases me that she wants to do those things.  We talk about them a lot, but seeing her enthusiastic about something about to happen makes me incredibly happy.  I set up the line between some trees outside her dorm, and tested it out,  it was a good line,  She asked if she could try it, so I pulled the line down and told her where to put her feet and what to do with her arms.  I held onto her arms and hips and stood braced while she balanced there on the line, occasionally leaning left or right, putting pressure on one of my hands.  She kept asking me to let go a little bit so she could try it her self on her own, like to just move my habds a little bit(like an inch) down, but i was really scared to let go of her.  I know how hurt you can get on a slackline, but I moved my hands down just a little, and she stood there on her own balanced on the line for about a second before leaning and i caught her arm.  I was so amazed, it took me so long to learn how to do what she just did in a few seconds of practice.  I was just wonderfully proud of her for doing so well. 
Even though sometimes you don't need your love tested, or feelings confirmed, they are anyways.  I was very scared and worried, more worried than i think i have ever been, but i knew I had to be as strong as possible for you.  I knew i needed to be there for you, but it's not just needing to be there.  I don't do these things because i think I "need" to, they just happen because i want to.  I don't ever want to see you hurting like that, like you were.  I would do anything in my power to make you never feel hurt or sorrow or pain ever again, but i can't, i can only be there, right beside you.  I don't think our love needed any testing, but if there was ever a time, I agree that that was one.  I know that you know I'm always here, and I know you're always there for me.  It's unconditional. 
We woke up at 9 on saturday and got ready to go to CAROWINDS!!!  We went home and met some parents :) and then we were off to carowinds with some coupons.  We rode almost every coaster in the park, and it was amazing.  The rollercoasters were fast and the weather was kinda lame for a little while with like clouds and a littttle bit of drizzle for a few minutes, but it got a whoole lot nicer after that.  And i just wanna say that the Reptar rollercoaster there, the rugrats one is one of the coolest coasters in the park.  Its like a tiny Top Gun.  it was awesome.  We rode a lot of fun rides and walked around so much, we were really tired at the end of the day.  Then we had to drive back to elon! haha.  It took a while, but it was ok.  We got back in time for sleep.
Today, we woke up at like noon and went to acron for sandwiches and then to cantina for a KILLER COOKIE!!!  So Good!!  That was one of the tastiest sugar treats I've ever had haha.  Then we saw Heaven and that was a really awesome and just a wonderfully pretty movie.  Like the colors and shot angles and composition of scenes.  The acting was great too.  We went to the mall and ate at Octogan and had some really good like bread and chees wrapped things with like tomato inside and basil I think? haha i duno  it was great though.  Then i dorve back here.
I really think this weekend was needed.  We being us is all that matters.  We find the fun in the sunniest days and in the muggiest rainy days( but its a little bit harder in this rainy days haha).

Some pretty neat things have happened to me in the past few days.
My buddy Graham and I were walking out of English and saw a bird. It wasn't moving and we weren't sure if it was dead or not. We got up really close to it and it moved its little head around and blinked its hugs round eyes at me and stared, turning its head slightly to the left as if it were more confused at me stopping then I was of him not moving. He was breathing just fine and we didn't notice any broken bones and he wasn't limping at all. Graham and I were petting him and a little crowd gathered around us. Graham nudged him a little and the bird hopped to the right revealing a small pile of poop he had been sitting on. This bird was able to hop, breathe, move, blink, and walk, but just decided to let us enjoy his presence instead. The group around the bird grew larger and larger until it had reached about 25 people, all equally amazed at this birds actions, or lack there of. One girl was standing near the bird in one of the closer proximity rings that had formed of onlookers and gawking southern college students, and with her foot in her sandal, proceeded to nudge the bird slightly. Before her foot was 4 inches from his slick feather chest, the bird looked forward, and took off. Hovering for an instant in place while his wings flapped wildly, and yet in some sort of precise fashion. The bird flew through some overhanging branches and we did not see it again, but we all let out a simultaneous and confused laugh at the site we had just witnessed together. That was definitely one of the coolest things i have ever seen.
I'm having to do articles for English class. We have to find an article a day and post it on our blog site. Yesterday I found the article about the Condor egg found in California that could potentially safe the Condors existence. But today I found an article on a man who is selling real estate on the moon. He found a loop hole in the 1967 UN Outer Space Treaty and is selling earth surface for 20 dollars and acre! i thought it was ridiculous. "Buyers include Hollywood stars, large corporations - including the Hilton and Marriot hotel chains - and even former US presidents Ronald Reagan and Jimmy Carter. George W Bush is also said to be a stake holder." How about that for sanity.
I THOUGHT I KNEW YOU BETTER THAN THAT CARTER!!!! hahaha
No government has acknowledged these sales as legal transactions, but i think the entire idea is ridiculous.

I had a really good day today. It started kinda glum, but i cheered up a whole lot. I went to the HOPE meeting and volunteered myself to be in the Ad and PR group and head it up almost. There are 2 of us as of right noe in Ad and PR. I think this will be one of the neatest experiences, HOPE. It will be my job to get people to notice homelessness. That what i really want to do and I found a way at my school to do that :). The entire experience so far has made me so happy, and it's only been 2 meetings haha. There's going to be a lot of work to come, but i know it will be so worth it. And its a work that isn't bothersome by any means, it's a passion.
I've been working on a lot of music lately too. If this week continues to be as relaxed and resting as these first two days, id expect maybe a new song out by friday, so check my purevolume page ; ). thats www.purevolume.com/reidphillips

Im also trying to get a job for this summer.  Im trying out all sorts of places in Greensboro, climbing gyms, and backpacking stores mostly.  If anyone out there has any kind of suggestions, please tell me.  Right now I just want a job, I need the money.

Things are just getting a lot better and EVERYONE is becoming a lot happier, which makes me a whole lot happier.
Spring hardly did its job this year, but summer will take its place. Spring should have made everyone cheerful and bright, but with cold fronts and pouring rain, its just been gloomy :/ Summer will be here soon enough. Just a few more weeks of classes and then some honest to God rest. None of this fake-ass rest we call the weekends or trips home. Some real, no more worries, bring on the fun and sun rest. My mind just feels like it has to have a real good rest form all this work. And I honestly can't wait. So many things lined up for the summer, and so much time to spend with the love of my life <3

"our story may twist and turn but as long as we are side by side, i know nothing else matters"

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